400 x 1400mm
L01-2011 Running water rushing through me.
250 x 760mm
L02-2011 Break down the wall, soften me
250 x 910mm
L03-2011 Drink in this perfection
To keep on or not to keep on?
Yes, dear readers....Its a new year and I'm already thinking of giving up. It's been 7 years!!!!! painting, marketing trying. I'm tired of hearing: its too big, too small, to bright, not bright enough....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh! Stuff that!
It just feels like it will never happen. yes I KNOW it is a recession and I KNOW that things will change, but I cannot keep on believing in something that might not happen. Maybe I just don't have it.....that 'spark' that everyone is looking for.
So....my decision is: I'll finish the work that I still have, I'm getting my CV ready, going to talk to someone on Friday. I'm going to get a job. Stuff art and everything that goes with it. Its been enough. Enough time wasted and spend trying to 'break' into the market. There is no market for what I do. You cannot keep hitting your head against a brick wall. The wall it not going to break for me. So....I just have to accept that.
Unless something radical happens whilst I'm finishing my last canvasses, this is the end of Leonie the artist (ha-ha=non artist)
5 comments:
Phew
Time for a deep breath, and lots of quiet time...
Is God telling you to get a job? Or are you being tested to the limit to ensure that you know where your provision comes from?
Hello Leonie. We met briefly at one of your exhibitions in Philadelphia last year (you might remember?) :)
Today's post made me so sad - these latest paintings are exquisite and it would be an unthinkable shame for you to abandon your art. Please reconsider. Don't paint for anyone but yourself - therein lies the real value of your art. And never give up! Ever! Consider this a big cyber-hug from me to you.
My dearest Leonie,
I hear you sister and please don't ever doubt yourself -You are so good in what you do. Yes keep on going (something radical) will happen - keep believing and keep painting. You know why you do what you do and having been doing it for the last 7 years... I love you sis and miss you dearly. P
Leonie you are one of the most inspirational artists I have met. I'm sure I'll be talking on behalf of all your students. I have not yet come accrosss an artist with a better technical ability than you. I don't see myself as an artist yet probably just because I have only been painting for two years but believe me talent like yours are difficult to find. I've done a few courses of which the longest was a three day course (you know which one) and I've honestly learned the most from you after only attending your class twice.
You have what it takes to be a successfull artist.
I am not the one who can give you advice but for me art is like running a business. You also have to constantly reinvent yourself by expanding your knowledge and boundaries. Unfortunately I do not know you well enough but I found that artists in general, or the few I know do not like learning from other artists. For me this is what keeps me going even if I can only paint over weekends. The world is so full of beauty with literaly millions of people with exceptional talent. All of this for me is a means of enhancing the way I see light, subject, colour and all the technical abilities you already have.
Maybe its just time for renewal!
Thanks for who you are!
Hey Uhmm if you like art, then maybe you shouldn't be so negative about your artwork.
Isn't there a sayimg or phrase or something about going through hard times to get to waht you want?
I'm not an artist, but I know that being an artist isn't easy, but artist don't give up easily!
Like with the Mona Losa. I don't get it! I mean what's interesting about it?
I'm sure Leonardo Davinci or something had the same problems! But look he's famous with just one artwork! Or are there more?
Like I said I don't know anything about art! And I'm sorry for being random but you shouldn't sell yourself short! You can do it! GOOD LUCK LEONIE BROWN!!!
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